Weird! Blogspot is giving me problems! I'm not able to upload any photos..urghh!! Just when I finally found the time to update my posts.

Anyway, last thurs was my convocation! Finally got to wear the gown and motar board. I think my parents are more excited than I am..haha. U know what graduation means? It means I no longer eligible to use my student card for discounts..sad:(

I've been thinking quite abit lately and I felt my faith in God growing bit by bit ever since I decided to enrol in my church's bible school. I realized the importance of growing more and more in love with God. If one is stagnant, it's almost impossible to claim that he/she still loves God. The only way to grow deeper in love is to move one step closer to God everyday. I think I still struggle with that but I know I'm in a much better condition before I decided to go for bible school. Pastor has been emphasizing this word in the bible " Know". " Know" in the original text is call " Ginosko" ( Greek) which means having an experience, understand. Most of us christians know the bible and know the ways of God but the know is not the word ginosko but just having knowledge without the experience. It's like I know who our Prime Minister is but I do not ginosko him. I do not know him personally. For many years, I lead my christian life like these, knowing what I should do and what I should not do because the bible/church says so. I never really had an experience with our living God.

Many people when they know I'm enrolling into a bible school thought I wanted to go into full time ministry or be a pastor. haha! I just want to ginosko God more and more and more. So how to ginosko Him? By doing things U never imagine doing..or do not have faith for. Thats why bible school is good, it requires us to do alot of things I never will want to do. One of my major fear was having the mock cell group. Everyone in my team is supposed to take a few roles in the cell group like games, praise, worship, word, testimony and offering. I was so fearful of having to take praise and worship as I know I have zilch talent in singing. I'm unable to project my voice so I have a tendency to sound really bad. lol! Guess what! I had to lead praise and worship in the cell grp. God always have a way of making us break our comfort zone. Mock cell grp went and was over and I'm still alive. After that, my fear for singing kinda disappeared. Although i will still feel adverse to singing, i will not have a panic attack if I was asked to lead again. Because of that leading praise and worship experience, I was able to lead praise in the womens' meeting in our mission trip to Sitiawan, Malaysia. I was reluctantly initially and I think i did not sang well but I'm glad I did it :)

We also had a preaching test and before entering into bible school, I had my fears too. I didn't know how to prepare a sermon and to stand infront of people to preach is a daunting task. Well, preaching test was over and I'm alive as well. It's another fear conquered. This is what the bible says " from faith to faith". I really like the prospect of overcoming fears and rendering it useless by overcoming it. The worse part of overcoming is to take this step and literally plunge it down but after u plunge, it becomes a much easier task to complete. After that, the feeling of not having that fear get you is so awesome! U also know God much better, u know that whatever He made u go through is for a greater purpose and to make u a stronger person. What wouldn't kill you will always make u stronger!

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